Healing an Energetic Assault
A personal story
Life shows us what is inside us that needs to heal. I most recently experienced this through watching other people dance. When I saw everyone dancing, I was overcome with a feeling of jealousy. Everyone seemed to have such freedom in their bodies. I did not know what that felt like, and I was jealous. Mine always seems so stiff and awkward.
Jealousy is a lower vibrational emotion than I prefer to feel. So I was intrigued. What is it inside of me that this jealousy is calling my attention to? To find out what I needed to release, I started asking questions.
When did I lose touch with my body?
I realized that this goes back to long before the sexual assaults I have worked on healing. So I asked my higher self, “Did something happen when I was around three or four?” It said yes, and I asked more questions until I learned that it was not a physical assault, but energetic.
When I was a young kid, I had dreams of being raped over and over again by strange creatures. I called them monsters or shadows. I even wrote a short book in fiction form about what those experiences were like a couple of years ago.
