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Can I trust myself to be healthy?
Or is worrying about health risks too engrained
I renounced my religion and felt enormous relief from freeing myself from its grasp; the guilt, sadness, disappointment, and inability to ever be enough.
I want to renounce medicine the same way by simply saying, I don’t believe in this, and I am no longer attending services.
I feel it will release me from feelings I get from the medical system like I am not thin enough, I don’t eat well enough, I don’t protect myself sufficiently from the elements to stay well.
Trusting My Body
When I have trusted my body not to get sick, it has followed through. My partner came back from an international trip with a bad cold and didn’t want to get close to me, saying I would get sick. I refused, insisting that I am healthy; I am not susceptible to the virus because I’m taking care of myself well.
It worked. I was okay because I didn’t allow myself even to imagine I could pick up those germs. I trusted my body to do what it's supposed to do. There is one massive problem with this idea.
Fear
Much of what we do in our day to day lives is motivated by fear. We pay to insure our homes, cars, and health in case a tragedy strikes. We put…
